My Saddest Heart

Sometimes you just can't wrap your mind around things that naturally happen in our world, like earthquakes, floods, tsunamis and tragic fires. But it is even more unbelievable when something happens that one person purposely caused.  Josh how could you?

The one thing that is impossible to still believe is Josh Powell killing his innocent little boys, and even more unimaginable is how he did it.

How could a father do this? He was really a monster. His thoughts probably were that if he could not control his boys, no one would. Such a horrific,
selfish action.

There's a commandment of "Thou Shalt Not Kill.", but also to compound on his sins there's a scripture in Matthew 18:6 "But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea." Josh took his own pitiful life, so the sea is not an option, but I think that the eternities he has chosen to be thrown out in outer darkness is even more sad.

Our Heavenly Father tells us not to judge others, so I will try to forgive Josh, or at least not think of this sadness as best I can. I believe that ALL the atrocities and unfairness in life will be handled by the only One who can really make those decisions.

I think that Josh learned many of his terrible bad habits, selfishness, arrogance and who knows what else from his father. He is also responsible in some great part. But as stated above, the Lord will take care of him, too.

I believe he first took his wife's life, then broke all hearts when he took the sweet lives of his beautiful, innocent boys.

The only solace that I can take from this is that now Susan can raise her boys in Paradise.

I didn't know this family personally, but through all the press and news, I feel like I do somehow. I hate the exploiting of their stories, but without this news I would never have known this tragic story of real people, of a real family gone. I wish this had only been a story of fiction that I could real, not real life events.

Happy heaven to those three lost ones, who died way too early. My heartfelt prayers and thought go to them, their loved ones and friends.

*Wear blue in honor of Braden and Charlie for Blue Saturday, February 11.